You might be wondering why I don’t post a lot of reviews on this blog. Well, it’s not due to lack of trying. I’m just terrible at them.
It’s funny because that’s kind of what book blogging is all about. I’ve yet to come across a book blog that is lacking of reviews. Now I’m not saying all these bloggers have an easy-skipping-down-the-sidewalk-to-the-library experience when writing a book review. I know that I just started blogging, and that it might take me time to figure out how to word my feelings and emotions when it comes to books, but I don’t know…
I don’t enjoy writing book reviews. I’m the kind of person that just wants to the take the book and throw it at a person to make them read it (in a nice way):
I’m the kind of person who uses asdfghjkl or !!!! to explain how I’m feeling. Or I just squeal – usually on the inside, but sometimes on the outside. (I end up getting annoyed and disgusted looks from my sister when I do that.)
I’m the kind of person who bores my close friends (more like 1 friend 😂) to death by raving about how AMAZING a book was, or how the ending was SO SAD, BUT SHE SHOULD DEFINITELY READ IT! At least my friend pretends to be interested.
The funny thing is, I can come up with a review in my head. I can finish reading a book, and in my head start to form sentences and thoughts, but literally, if I sat down at that moment to write those thoughts down, I start second guessing everything. Does that sound right? Does that even make sense? Does that even do my feelings justice?
Even if I waited a day or to, it doesn’t help. Like I just finished reading The Will of the Empress, and I HAVE SO MANY FEELS, and like I know what I’d like to write, but I just CAN’T????
Then there is the fact that I’m usually the last person on Earth to have read most of the more popular books from the past few years. I don’t go around reading reviews of books that I haven’t read yet, unless it specifically says that it doesn’t contain spoilers. Even then, I’m hesitant. I’ve read reviews of a book, after reading the book myself, and it kind of changes my feelings towards the book and makes it even harder for me to write a review. I should probably never read reviews, but then how am I supposed to get better at writing them?
I’ve thought about keeping a reading journal as I read, but alas I’m hopeless. When I’m reading, I’m usually engrossed in the book and literally aliens could be attacking the world and I wouldn’t give a crap! Having to stop mid-battle or mid-snarky-reply-to-handsome-fellow would take a lot of self-control, which I don’t have. I do use Goodreads while I’m reading, and try to update frequently, but I don’t want to spoil anything for anyone else, so I’m careful with my updates.
I’ve also thought about maybe writing my reviews differently, or in a different style. Like I could use GIFs to explain my feelings, or divide up what I want to talk about. But as I sit down to write it, it just gets annoying. I don’t want to write about the characters and what I thought. I don’t want to write about the world-building and the plot. I could talk about it with someone, but writing it down and making it good enough that I feel confident enough to post it, it’s just too stressful.
Even with all these issues, I’m not entirely mad at myself for not writing reviews. I mean, I want to write reviews. Badly. But, if I don’t it won’t be the end of the world. I know that a lot of people write reviews because they enjoy them, or because they want to share their thoughts and feelings with everyone else, or maybe because they’re hoping that they’ll be able to receive ARCs from publishers one day. (Probably all three reasons). But for me, personally, I don’t care about ARCs. I don’t like writing reviews. And I wish I could share my thoughts about the book with people, but I guess I’ll have to figure out another, more coherent way.
Well, that’s it. There’s my rant. If you have any suggestions, helpful tips, thoughts/opinions, internet hugs to give, comment down below. (So I don’t feel bad about posting this).